holy shit. so, i didn’t say anything because i didn’t want to jinx it but i had an interview on friday (the day after my wisdom teeth were out) and they said if i got the job i’d hear back from them as early as monday and theY CALLED THEY FRICKEN CALLED AND THEY OFFERED ME THE JOB!!
so yeah. there are a few things i’ve got to do before i can start but i’m so excited. it’s somewhere i wanted to work. it’s temporary because they need summer help, but depends on how things work out they might need me into the fall. but i dont care i’ve got a job ;aksdnfioewjklfm.sdnf;iwelkfam;wef
I hate it when people (family) ask me if I like anyone or if I’m in a relationship. it really gets to the point that I just want to yell “yes, okay, yes I’m in love with someone. I’ve been in love with the same guy since like sophomore year and he left for a long time and now he’s back but i haven’t talked to him and it sucks. don’t ever ask me again.”
but in stead I just say no because its simpler and I don’t have to dwell on it.
feeling kinda shitty. kinda sick. mouth is throbbing and my stitches are poking me and creeping me the fuck out and I have a headache that could put Lucifer down. ugh.
got all four wisdom teeth removed. everything feels like jello. feeling pretty good right now, gonna marathon Grimm s1 when I get home.
I feel like Tumblr has heightened how I feel emotions like ten fold. no one outside of Tumblr feels as strongly. when i express my emotions fully people tend to brush it off as me trying to be dramatic. they don’t understand that what I’m expressing is a fourth of the way the emotions feel inside. and sometimes I just don’t express anything at all because its so overwhelming. it makes it really hard to connect with people because they don’t know how to handle my emotions when I do show them and when I don’t show any at all it just confuses them.
friendly reminders that i will be
a. liveblogging the spn finale tonight (blacklist spn 8) and i will be completely inconsolable afterward, dont even bother talking to me unless you want to cry with me
and b. i’m getting my wisdom teeth removed tomorrow morning and i will be inconsolable (and more than a little loopy)and i’m not setting up a queue because i can’t bring myself to because of spn and the fact thaT IM GETTING MY WISDOM TEETH REMOVED FROM MY MOUTH. FUCK.
this is gonna suck
mother denied me my pie :(
aahhhhg, exactly halfway through my second edit of my manuscript. scary things are happening.
job searching fucking sucks. and I’m getting my wisdom teeth removed this Thursday AND I DONT WANT TO. IVE NEVER HAD SURGERY OF ANY KIND AND IM GONNA FUCKING EXPLODE THIS IS SO SHITFUCKING DUMB I JUST WANT TO SKIP THIS ENTIRE WEEK AND NOT REMEMBER IT. FUCK.
just ordered four books even though i have like five others to read… oops
okay but like, why isn’t there a fandom job I could have? like I would rock so hard at a store that sold fandom paraphernalia.